I know you are trying so hard but you already know it doesn’t work like that at all!-.- we’ve know each other for the longest time but you still don’t get me!!! 

I don’t get you! you have all the support you can get from people and you keep telling us you will get over it but you just going back to your mistake!!! WHY??? I don’t know but you know you deserve better than that!!! everytime you go back to her you always regret it but you still go to her?? I’m tired of defending you and everything I wish you can stand up for your self next time!! cause you friends really feel bad about what you are doing to your self right now-.-

I’ll be honest I hella get jealous when someone try to get to close to my bestfriend-.- I don’t say anything but I get really jealous in the point I won’t talk to anyone!!! 

when it comes to bestfriends I want my bestfriend to me just my bestfriend and no one else!!!

call me selfish but thats me!!! I don’t say anything but deep inside I’m jealous -.-

I lost a lot of bestfriends maybe thats the other reason why!!!

I don’t know but I don’t have any confidence about me singing anymore!! yeah they say I’m good and all those stuff but I know I’m not good enough!! I wish i can sing in front of a lot of people!! and I wish I have the courage to do that but i really don’t!! if I do it by myself I know I’m going to fail!! because I suck!! I really wish I’m confident stupid me!!! I feel so lame and shit!!! Senior year no one even really know I know how to sing even if I’m not that good I wish I can sing by myself in front of a lot of people I don’t really know!!!! but right now all the courage I thought I have is officially went to trash!!! I CAN’T SING FOR CRAP!!!! -.-

is FUCK UP right now!!! I don’t know whats wrong but I feel like I can’t look at you and even say Hi, whats wrong with me!!!!! in few days something will happen and I’m still like this in front of you!!! this doesn’t look good!!! stop it!!! don’t over think!!!! -.-

I am really sacred of whats happening!!! I think I’m really obvious now but at the same time I’m an option not the number one or priority but an OPTION!!! so this is how to feel to be an option its sad!!! I think I will always be an OPTION for you!!!!

but i had a dream of you >.> WTH is wrong with me help please!!!!

i need to talk to someone……..

idk whats happening to me why am i letting this to happen

for some reason i’m getting jealous ): NOOOOOOOOOO

i really need to go with him and i hope its official not just a hangout ):

to be honest I never thought something like this will happen.. i try to avoid someone but something worse happen >.> idk maybe i’m over thinking but it didn’t happen once it happen about 4 times today >.> idk why i let this happen!! sight… for the first one was okay but the 2nd, 3rd and 4th time it happen but its kinda hiding it that make me over think WHY!!! is there really something or maybe i’m over thinking OMG!!! somebody help me pleaseeeeee );

I think i’m a different person now. for some reason i don’t want to get involve in any relationship right now.. i like to say i like being single right now..